Friday, September 07, 2007

Culture Vulture

Had an ineresting french lunch experience, you know the lunches that go on for more than 2 hours and how they leave you feeling so full of new prespectives and insights but a little light on the wallet :)
A group member came up with an interesting Q - whats the culturally most important factor in your country/ what are you guys really hung up about?
So here are a few quickly polled responses -

German - Cars

Australian - Sports

French - Balance & Pleasure - the good life

Indian - Family or marriages

hmmmm, so when its incentive time we know what to offer which culture specific individual? something tells me $$$ would do just fine over all the countries & all the cultures...so much for diversity, lets talk about the unity!


In more such really breathtaking exciting news - my group made it to the Top 10 in the drunk driving poster competition. Not bad work for half an hour but we suddenly have heavier schedules next week. And if we make it to the Top 3, who knows a dinner with the dean?.... who i happen to think is real cool, maybe I have a thing for authority figures? I dont know but I do recollect a rather long conversation over at a party about men in uniform & dirty dark fantasies....
keep expecting more such snippets from my culturally diverse, socially hectic, strangely manic new life


confession: 700+ gmat does not mean you have a mind that can bend around financial algorithms or even a simple financial calculator...
i'm telling you, you only getthis kind of gup here & as i blow my trumpet ( no puns whatsoever) let me welcome our v new prolific entrant, Yareev!

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Life in the forest

Apologies for the infrequent postings but when warned about time limitations this particular blogger wasn't listening. Already behind on class readings, yours truly is fast realizing that this thing is spinning way out of control & we are still 'settling in'

French bureaucracy doesn't help either, just makes it a bit more of a merry go round. Welcome week was a round of parties, an exit language test, 4 classes worth 8 hours a day, opening ceremony & cocktails & finally the welcome week party.
You really should have seen the faces roaming fonty streets on Sunday noon,making last minute attempts to enter monoprix for the weeks groceries... i'm still keenly awaiting the cleaning ladies arrival back from holiday. Yes we have the pleasure of one in france but as of now she has been off for a month already with no clear signs of emerging soon from her hiatus. Maybe its the Indian mentality but her presence is going to greatly comfort me...

Classes have started in earnest & its a mixed bag. Enjoyed 4 professors immensely, 1 I shall get along with and 1 can be avoided at all costs. 1 more shall do his inaugural class before the week is over & then it'll be time for tutorials

10 months are not long enough

Sunday, August 26, 2007

1st impressons

I'm back! yes, again. awake from slumber & already trembling with fear. Fear? why? Well lets see, I've landed in France & school starts tomorrow. Stage fright was always a problem & the roll call hasn't even started yet.
So a quick round up of 1st impressions-

Dont understand a word of French after 2 months of classes & too embarrassed to try, so mostly I'm backing off from the language exam this week. dont want to start the year feeling more miserable than I already am

Fontainebleau is pretty & quaint but tres cher

House is sweet & almost exactly like how it was described. Though have to admit we have got lucky. Word of caution - when the agent says its a 5 min walk pls remember he/she is a state level athlete & can cover huge distance in record time that mere mortals will not be able to. For simplifying life just multiply by 3 & you'll be fine.

This is v exciting, we live in a venture capitalists backyard & he has 'good relations' with INSEAD professors when asked if he comes to campus for recruiting! hmmm, have to be friendlier to his dogs now

As expected, there is a party or get together every day noon & night. Been for 1 dinner, 1 party, a couple of meet ups, 1 lunch,1 excursion to Paris & its only been 4 days. Yes, my networking skills suck, seem to missing as many as I'm attending

Repeated by almost everyone from the Business foundation group - its tough, too much work, no sleep & goes way too fast. I have no business background, too broke to sign up for the rich kids express learning tour & too lazy to have gone the self taught route. This is dangerous & definetly not recommended. Have to rely on charm only from now on but in this 'charming' little town thats not a quality in short supply, sigh...at least i know enough economics to realize I'm in the merde.


Again repeated by every BFP attendee - the professor specifically stated that networking is far more important here than learning. great can they start grading us on how many parties we attended, how many invitations we garnered & how many inane conversations we could squeeze into an hour?

Reflection on above point - I'm not good at 'networking', at all the meets people finally ended mixing as per gender & nationality. Not as per recommendation right? Some seem genuinely great at it & very enthusiastic towards one & all. Somehow I'm already feeling like I'm not making the cut into the 'cool peoples group, damn I actually said no to a party, i don't have a future, this is going to haunt me all my life....oh god i better pause for breath

2nd reflection of same point - if its only about networking, wouldnt 70,000Euros be a great kitty to start my own party hearty club? So are we here to become a fully paid up member of the club?

So whats going to be my USP, seems a bit unlikely I'm breaking into the deans list, and if I'm not the networking energizer bunny, where do i stand? Is the middle ground gonna be good enough?

There are so many of us, when they say diversity they mean it. Already met marine engineer, consultant,economist, lawywer, PR agent, every engineer under the sun( they all somehow blur into this single unit for me)

The sections just got announced & now I know my group mates. Having refused the car ride to the party I am now the loser sitting in my pj's & checking the stats out - we are 311 of us here in Fonty.

My group has 5 members & 5 nationalities, 3 continents & 4 careers. Between us we speak 7 languages. great!
More such v random thoughts running thru my head & we are now under 12 hours to registration.

Sunday, August 12, 2007

The surreal life of Miss dee

So I'm back & not yet dead (not that anyone seemed to have missed me :(...) Should be leaving for Fonty in a week & I'm still feeling stuck, no pre reading done, no bank account yet(well this is a lie since I just got confirmation that I do have an account except I cant access it till snail mail arrives after 10 days!)7 no confidence in my French..ah well such is life
Last couple of days have seemed like a never ending party with day & night all mixing into each other creating a very surreal situation. As if on cue, most reasonable & not so reasonable ppl I know have also started acting a little well 'revealing'. Its as if after years of knowing them,you suddenly get a completely new perspective on them and it makes you wonder what were you thinking all this time...no, no none of this is inspired by my leaving for other shores, just suddenly for no reason we are having some very 'interesting' days....
Meanwhile daddy dearest has decided to pitch his bit into the confusion & landed into hospital so now we are just getting more weirder by the minute...family time is also becoming very 'revelatory'
All in all a lot of fun & games before departure & by now I'm just sick of hearing about the 'farewell' so if I hear it one more time I might just retch in that direction!

Monday, July 30, 2007

A quick update...still alive!

Ok so i know I've been missing for awhile but honestly so much is happening in the non INSEAD sphere (yes, it does exist, i admit) that blogging is one of the last things i can devote my time too....all waking hours were spent on Harry Potter just like the rest of the millions of muggles & I'm happy to say it's all over now...finally!
So a quick round up of what I've been doing (apart from practicing with my wand that is)
Went to the 1st farewell party - hosted by INSEAD alumni who to quote them wished to answer any questions we may have...oh yeah a couple- how soon do I get out of debt? how soon to the dream job?....nope but these are not the 'right ' questions so they were left unanswered. A few insights from the meet -
V few alumni showed up but the admits were so exuberant it didn't seem to matter.
Of the few who did most were recent grads on their visit back home before leaving for unknown lands...
Everyone insisted the toughest challenge was clearing the exit language requirement & advised whole heartedly to tackle this monster at the very onset
the quote of the night - "INSEAD will offer you a lot but finally its up to you to make what you can of it. Be greedy & grab every opportunity to network & party because the program is great but thats just the basics."

Ok then, we get the point

Apart from this v interesting night, life is filled with last minute prep to open a bank account - i shall most certainly post my recommendations once i've finally procured one.
The final payment (for moi... scholarship holder & all) has been made & now as a fully paid up student I fantasize about signing bonuses that cover everything I've spent...how gredy can I be?

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Year of Possibility




It's that time of the year again. The change of guards is taking place & interestingly the mood on both sides of the border is rather similar albeit for different reasons.

The class of J07 have graduated & the bloggers are saying their goodbyes. May they all make tons of money & hold interesting positions in a variety of careers. May they always be available for the rest of us that follow for advice, networking and hopefully a drink or two over discussions on the alma mater.

I now feel the need to change status on hella's list from applicant to student. There are only 45 days to start of school now & "the one year to challenge our thinking, change our outlook" is about to start with a vehemence.

So whats the activity like 45 days before school? here's a round up-
I'm still struggling to become a Francophone - in a desperate bid to pass my exit language requirement
I still have not touched my pre reading material, emboldened by so many others who claim the same but may just be the best economists, finance gurus or account maverick. I'm none of the above but I took heart when a current D07 student put it simply - this is the time to enjoy with family & friends. Re charge the batteries & rest because the next 10 months are anything but an easy ride.
Socialising is paramount right now. There are a round of parties & almost all weekdays & weekends are filled with them. The parties are not being called 'farewell' just yet but interestingly thats all we talk about now a days. From friends, family, colleagues, boss the conversation runs the same ground - the new life... and like clockwork within 5 minutes of this conversation the Q comes up - are you coming back?
I don't know I say, i don't know anything...
What are you going to do? I don't really know
Where will you work post college? I don't really know
How will you cope away from home, away from your spouse? I don't really know


My reluctance to commit to any answers & hug all this uncertainty comes from simply realizing that this year is special. Special because its the year of possibilities & maybe thats the reason why for all those who passed out from INSEAD still call it the best year of their lives.


One year to challenge your thinking, change your outlook and choose your future

I intend to do that.

Friday, July 06, 2007

What makes a terrorist?

After the London & Glasgow terror attacks, terrorism is on the front pages again. Now WSJ reports a study by Princeton economists that shows there is no provable link between poverty & terrorism nor between illiteracy & terrorism.
The London attack was planned by doctors & a new book theorizes that its not your income level or education that determines if you become a potential terrorist but the curtailing of civil liberties.
So how come China is not suffering this epidemic?
Have terror attacks increased or decreased since India's growth rate exceeded its innate 'hindu' rate of growth?
How is that most of the foot soldiers for various 'jehad', 'separatists' movements come from the underbelly?
What drives doctors or LSE grads or pilots to

Monday, July 02, 2007



After much dithering about when, where and how the Bombay admits finally decided to meet up again...only to be rained in. Another point to the Bombay monsoon for playing the spoilsport. And again the heavens win this round too by finally making the municipal authorities confess that they can do no good & we must wait till 2011 for roads that wont become rivers.
So the weeks been gray, rainy, wet & v mucky. And how I'm going to miss it. Count down for departure has started, bought on very early by the rain clouds insisting on moments to be spent alone in introspection as the city drowns...again.

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Morality ? anyone ?

Saw Thank you for Smoking - intelligent & funny, that is a rare combination to have.

The protagonist believes that a properly constructed argument is more important for winning than the content of the argument. He demonstrates the tricks of the trade to his son over a debate on chocolate vs. vanilla ice cream -
Firstly you must push your opponent to make a claim - the more extreme the better for you.
Then you must offer evidence that brings this claim under question.
This makes the audience disbelieve your opponent,and so without proving your own stand to be correct you have proved the opponent to be incorrect.

Of course if your intention is to convince your opponent then maybe instead of an argument you should try a discussion.

All this just lead me to think about the moral ambiguities of day to day life. Some things believed to be a certain way are totally another thing in a different aspect, and therefor arguable.

Like drinking - in Europe & surely in France having a glass of wine or pint of beer with lunch is absolutely fine. In India though a drink in the afternoon especially a work week is totally reprehensible - drinking on the job is morally, professionally & socially wrong.
Similarly when an American friend of mine started working in India she was perplexed. Now the way she worked in the US was to never commit anything that she could not deliver & when she committed something it was sacrosanct.
Indians on the other hand will readily commit to sending you to the moon, tomorrow!
Here saying no to a client or a person in authority is just not done.

Last week over a chat with the INSEAD career services - a strange fact came up. Apparently the low figures for placements in Japan were because in the past the few who did manage to work there, quit in less than a year citing cultural difference or rather culture shock.
My husband told me of a trip his colleagues took to Japan. They went there to meet a client & were shocked to see that people actually kept their pets in office & most in fact lived in their offices - sleeping under the desk, showering & working again.
The Indian team felt v guilty to walk out of office at 11:00 pm as the office was still buzzing with activity.

So some amount of moral flexibility (another phrase from the movie) might just be a good thing. Maybe soon it'll be fashionable to take a centrist position on the moral crossroads....who knows but suddenly I'm buying into this whole diversity aspect of the b school.
My position on it was ambiguous, I mean it helped my own application but I wasn't sure how it was supposed to translate into an asset on the work field.If its such an asset then how come the big b schools from America aren't embracing it so whole heartedly but lately i think it would be really important to have a varied exposure in your work life - just makes you more well rounded & maybe even a bit 'irreplaceable'
Also given that the world keeps changing so fast, adaptability might be the new personality trait recruiters look for?

Saturday, June 16, 2007

Dialogue baazi






"You are analog players in a digital world"
Oceans 13



"By pretending to be a man in love, he became a man in love"
Paris Je t'aime

A few additions to the classic one liner pantheon...

p;s: can you tell I'm not doing any work anymore

Coffee, tea or Politics?

Inspired by D.T.L.F and with ample of time to kill I have now come to realize that I am a leftist liberal...damn, what am i going to B school for?

To figure out where you stand in the quagmire of politics - check it here

My score, if anyone wants to compare

Economic Left/Right: -3.38
Social Libertarian/Authoritarian: -5.23

Thursday, June 14, 2007

My work

Just one of the projects I recently produced...no its not the best of my producer's capabilities but what the heck, its a 'buzz' creating film so the clients happy


Wednesday, June 13, 2007

1 more reason to LOL


I got Aid....scholarship ahoy!!!
This is the best news I've heard (post of course the admit decision)....so totally awesome! Rather generous too ; )
Not just a big relief but honestly the biggest motivator..I'm feeling so loved up by the universe right now, its unbelievable. Just the sign (rather a big billboard) to let me know I'm so totally going to be OK...
btw this post comes from my brand new mac & the first email it opened was the scholarship decision...talk about being lucky!

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

INSEAD Class of '08

The Insead bloggers for J'08 is growing everyday. At last count we are 9, if we count neha in as an Insead spouse. Cool...now to see how many of us remain in the fray post our 10 months.
Welcome to new ones, lets rock!

Friday, June 01, 2007

The new pecking order


After a rather long wait, INSEAD finally released it's Career Report 2006. Just in time to intice the next round of initiates, even the website has undergone cosmetic changes. I like the effort put in to entrap us and make us salivate.
Around this time last year, the brochures, career reports, websites all seemed to paint this fantsyland with its gates firmly shut. It was all we could dream of, gaining entry to never neverland :) So its tres bizzare to be sort of at the halfway house...not yet in but waiting in line with an assured place. This blog has already started getting queries from 2009 applicants, I'm feeling old.... a definitive heirarchy is in place -new applicants, halfway house bloggers now with clear loyalties to schools we are attending & the current batch of students who we all revver for the inside gup
Should I change status now from applicant to student?

Another interesting titbit - there's a lot of noise around about Indians coming back home, the NRI coming back to roots, India offering the best oppertunities etc etc,... The Career Report though showed that only 18% of all Indians at INSEAD in 2006 came back to homeland. The lowest figure from all the other nationalites... anyone want to analyse the trend?

Thursday, May 31, 2007

The funny business of Films




I wanted to write a post on the film I saw last night. As with most mundane of offerings, the more worse off the product is, the more creative my critique becomes. This suffices but you start to lose your zeal when everything you watch is mundane, irrelevent and just plain old bad. Its becoming a sad plight, I love the movies. Its one art form that captured me young and has never let go. I ache to be able to go to a film and feel moved, to feel... But apart from the growing DVD nights, the multiplex doesn't satisfy & its disappointing.
So instead of another ranting on another bad flick, this is a ranting on the whole big picture.
Zantos wrote about the Danish TV show about kidney donation & to continue that discussion, here are my thoughts.
The media business is set to explode all across the world. I can imagine salivating executives coming out their conferences with numbers buzzing in their heads, new jargons flying about like saucers and a triumphant boss rubbing his hands with glee shouting "Show me the money!"
Technology has created new ways to create content, new ways to distribute it and new ways to digest it. So the going should be great but it isn't. Why?

Because no one knows how, why or what that 'content' should say. Over last month I met many so called important movie executives & it all seemed so strange. They all have money, bags of it . They all want movies which are different, which are cool, which are meaningful but don't know where to look. They proudly stake their claim to spot a winner because now they have a 'script' department. What they don't mention is that this script department is two nubile young things working on subsistence pay to read and judge scripts. Who are they, what is their qualification and on what basis do they judge.
I wrote a script some moons ago, but never took it out anywhere. No I wasn't scared of the judgment but yes I was scared of who would pronounce this judgment. Whose subjective sensibilities would make my destiny? Whose own childhood memory, first love, college experience, his first pay, the car or the humble train e/she took to work would decide what I offer is of what quality?
And herein lies the problem. On one side of the stage are the waiting audience needing entertainment, information, insights. And on the other side of the gangway is the executives wanting to deliver, wanting to satisfy this apparent need and make some serious moolah.
In the middle are the artists - not knowing on whose directions to move. Who pulls the strings? The money men who'll offer them a chance? The audience who will make them a star? Or themselves & that voice in their heads that made them come to this tentative world of struggles & souls?

And so we get the kidney doner show, the movie with all the resources but no resolution, the song with all the pomp but no voice, the art with all its shenanigans but no voice.
We are developing so fast & there are so many opportunities but no training, no world -view, no ethical conundrum, no definition of taste, no political stand point, no basis in the role we play in the world. No clue how are actions and our work acutely affect and create a new consciousness. No idea of long term impacts and absolutely no concern that as a small or large part of the media, of the world, we leave our imprints in one way another.

Apologies, this turned out to be a highly personal stream of consciousness piece but then true love does always have the deepest agony :)

Wednesday, May 30, 2007





A few years ago, Maharashtra decreed that before every movie show, the national anthem needs to be played. I'm yet to truly make up my mind on this though.
As some friends have vociferously pointed out over many drinks & random conversations that never really lead anywhere, a compulsion to hear or play the national anthem is still a compulsion & therefore an infringement of a free individual.
You may not want to stand up but you do, fearing the crowd around. You may not want to hear the anthem, but you do even if the flick you came to watch is just pulp & you love it. You may not share the patriotic feeling, but you pretend you do because what kind of an individual would you be otherwise...

I'm not sure where I stand on this debate. When it first started I loved it. I don't think I've heard the anthem after school & that makes me sad. I don't do the things that would make me come into contact with any of the nationalistic 'compulsions' we had at school. Strange after reading the preamble of the constitution in every school book I've ever owned I think I've actually forgotten it. So yes it was surely welcome...at first.
Soon it became another advert, another 3 minutes you could come in late, another 3 minutes to buy popcorn, just another 3 minutes...

At last nights excursion to the multiplex - a weekly standard issue of my night life, I heard it again. This one was beautifully composed by Rehman & sung by some of the best singers in India. Being blind to it for so long, it suddenly struck me.
Why, oh why do we have to have a karaoke version of our national anthem?
So basically have the makers of the video concluded that Indians don't know the words to their anthem?
Or is it that Indians never show a vocal passion for their national anthem because well heck they don't know the words?
Don't know what was going on in their minds when they made this video but a suggestion for improvement might be to identify all the singers. Apart from the Bollywood regulars hogging the limelight, the average joe (or jarmeet) doesn't know the rest & that is as sad as not knowing the words to the national anthem.
What merit to being Indian if you haven't discovered the Indian gems which lie silently buried under the Bollywood glitter...
And why after using some great voices does the composer need to donn all white & untie his unruly locks & finish the crescendo? I do enjoy his music but honestly his singing is mediocre at best..but then maybe this is another exercise of 'ego maintaining'

As for the film that I saw..another post coming right up :)

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Good news, Bad news

Sad news stared at me in my inbox today. I didn't get a scholarship I had applied to. Strangely i thought it wouldn't hurt this bad but it does. Maybe just the prospect of rejection- something I haven't mastered the handling of...
The website declares that 2 of the scholarships i applied for have been decided upon yet I have only received an email on one of them. Both these were scholarships i had hopes for so let see what happens to the remaining 4. Shouldn't start mourning just yet, keeping the fingers crossed

On a happy note I have finally managed to book a romantic getaway holiday and I'm super excited...its the same place & hotel as our honeymoon. It's a befitting holiday to mark the end of one phase & the start of another...where we'll reach by the end of the year is anyone's guess but i love nothing more than an open road & such opportunities come so rarely in life

Monday, May 07, 2007

Meets & Misses

The Insead Alumni in Bombay meets every first Friday of the month. Unfortunately they change this policy rather often leading to some forgone opportunities :(
Some 30 odd students from Insead were in India for BBI - building Business in India and I suppose to fit them in the Alumni meet happened on Thursday rather than on Friday. Woefully I only managed to get in touch with Domo while he was on his way to the airport & so missed this party for now...
But the Sunday before, the new admits did manage a nice evening of our own.Over drinks flowed the typical patter of MBA hopefuls. The first time we met, just after news of an admit most conversations were about the relief, the stress and the GMAT. We were still evaluating each other and more acutely our own applications....thanking heavens to be part of this bright people's universe.
The last meeting though concentrated on our current preoccupations, namely all the admin mess we need to sort out from housing to visas to finances to insurances... And also the hint of our very ambitious though completely ambiguous, sketchy post MBA dreams...mostly everyone was open to change, hopeful for it and honestly just bewildered that soon life was about to present very varied opportunities...again a hesitant smile & crossed fingers accompany most of this chatter. Posts from Domo about interviews and dings ring a harsh tone. but ensconced in the bright brave new India with rising pay packets and unheard of options we are happily dreaming of new lives

Thursday, May 03, 2007

The working life

Shot a marathon shoot and yesterday was a first in my career - went a total of 24 hours without sleep at work! Wow! Am I ready for the consultants life or what - I mean it almost sounds cushy compared to what I'm doing right now.
Had a fantastic moment at wrap of shoot. With everyone functioning at near zombie levels we finally called wrap after a 20 hour shoot and a spontaneous applause rang out. Some sixty odd sleep deprived, exhausted crew bonded so well...I'm going to miss this crazy energy!
Back at work today & flooded with so many of your comments & others on the netvestibule - feels good to be back!
Mr. Anonymous - I accept the challenge, I love mystery so I'm going to enjoy playing this game but you ought to give me some clue...??